Sandbox Life 3

It’s been a while, and I apologize! I had fallen into a bit of a rut of methodical days on and boring days off, and apart from reviewing an album I haven’t done a legitimate post in quite some time. 2017 has proven to be an interesting year already, both back home and over in the sandbox. From record-breaking snowstorms back in Idaho to record-breaking munition deliveries supporting the mission, the year is off to a crazy start, and hopefully this one wont take as many beloved celebrities. As always, time will tell.

There’s not much new to report on the trans front, unfortunately. I haven’t heard anything back from my psych about my paperwork being approved at a higher level, but I’m sure things like that will take some time. It IS the military, after all! A week or so into February should be my next appointment, and with a new psych, so that should prove both challenging and interesting. I don’t have the irrational fear of being told I’m making things up anymore, since I legitimately do have a diagnosis of gender dysphoria. Having that weight off my shoulders, and knowing for certain that I am female regardless of what I may appear to be, will be immensely empowering when it comes to facing new challenges. Bring it on!

On the nerdier side of life, it seems the group’s brief Vanilla WoW session has largely died out. Only two original players remain, myself not included. I simply can not get back into that game, no matter what brand of heroin they’re offering. I’ve been sinking a lot of hours into both Stellaris and VA-11 Hall-A lately, and I’m certain I’m extremely close to finishing my first playthrough of the latter. Stellaris is just one of those Civ-esqe games that take weeks to finish, so it’s pretty much an idle occupation. Last week I started a new server/character on Starbound with a coworker, since he now has the same day off as me. There have been a lot of changes since I played last, and it’s quite refreshing I must say! Screw those fuel-obsessed moon ghosts, though. Seriously. As for anime, I binged Psycho-Pass after getting highly immersed in the story. Still hesitant to watch season 2, however, as I’ve heard it was largely disappointing and unoriginal. The original, though, was deliciously cyberpunk-y and I saw a lot of myself in the main girl Akane. She has this astounding ability to keep her mind clear and mentality optimistic even after seeing someone die right in front of her. I feel inhuman sometimes when I try to rationalize feelings and try to keep my head up. Maybe I’m strong, maybe I’m a monster.  You tell me.

On a rather dysphoric note, I witnessed some transphobia today and it was pretty hard to just bite my tongue and not out myself at this point in the game. Chelsea Manning’s sentence reduction was brought up, and a few people started making all sorts of claims and insults about surgeries and trans identity. I’m not gonna get all snowflakey about it, but it just confirms a lot of my suspicions about the way many of the people I know feel about the subject. One of my “allies” made a comment tangentially defending transgenders, but he was shot down immediately. I appreciate the effort, I really do. I’ll just have to show them what it’s really like to know a transgirl, and they’re gonna be forced to deal with it. Take that!

All in all, I had been putting off blog posts for the sheer lack of material to write about. Hopefully things will start to get exciting here again in a month or two as we start gearing up to head home, and that can mean only one thing for me: Project Val will be in full effect. It’ll be hormone time at last! Oh yeah, I’m sick, but nobody cares~

See ya next time!

“I’ll keep my helmet on
Just in case my head caves in
‘Cause if my thoughts collapse
Or my framework snaps
It’ll make a mess like you wouldn’t believe” – “Cave In” by Owl City

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